Sunday, July 29, 2007

Lost for words

There are so many stories and pictures from Blogher '07 that I want to share with you all, but I'm afraid you'll either have to wait or go read about it from other bloggers, because upon arriving at the airport today - actually, before I even got on the plane - my life was set into a tailspin.

My grandmother is dying. I received the phone call while I was waiting for my flight that she took a turn for the worse and the doctors don't think she has very long to live. I have only just placed my tired, hungover behind on my couch after a long day because Mr. C took me straight from the airport to the hospital to gather with my family around my Gram's bed. It was hard to leave but Chicky was getting tired. I'll go back tomorrow, if she makes it through the night. I think she might because she's holding on, clinging to life through sheer will. For what I don't know, but my Gram is a strong woman and if she's not ready to go yet then she has good reason for choosing not to join her husbands and her three children at the moment.

So my blogging will be sporadic at best until life gets back to normal. Not that life without my Gram will be normal. To the contrary, I don't think my life without Gram will ever be the same again.

But my life has also be irrevocably changed due to meeting some of the most fabulous women - and men - on the planet. I keep expecting that I'll walk out my front door and you'll all be there. That you won't makes me very sad.

Next year, my friends, next year.

Until then I'll keep our laughter with me. It will help get me through.

35 comments:

canape said...

I am so sorry to hear about your Gram. I'll be thinking about you and your family.

In the Trenches of Mommyhood said...

Thinking of you and your Gram. We'll catch up soon.

flutter said...

I'll be thinking about you and yours.

Kizz said...

Oh dear, I'm so sorry. I've gotten that call before and it's just awful. I'm glad that you found out in time to get home and see her. Let us know if there's anything we can do.

Kris said...

So sorry to hear this.

JaniceNW said...

I'm very sorry about your grandmother. I'm sending out prayers.

Kyla said...

I'm so sorry. Not the kind of surprise you like to get upon returning home. Hugs.

And I'm missing everyone already, too. It's strange in a way.

Lawyer Mama said...

I'm so sorry. Cyberhugs coming your way.

It was great to meet you.

NotAMeanGirl said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this hon. I remember it well. You and yours are in my prayers.

jen said...

oh honey. i am so sorry. i hope she finds her peace and you are able to find yours too.

oh, honey.

Heather said...

I am so glad you are able to be with your grandmother now. It's hard, I know, but I;m sure she is very comforted by your loving presence.

As for BlogHer, I know what you mean when you say it's sad to know those people won't be where you can reach out and touch them.

I met my best friend via blogging and it is hard every.single.time we say goodbye.

mamatulip said...

I'm really sorry, Mrs. C. I'll be thinking of you and your family.

Cate said...

Oh, that's hard. I'm sorry.

Major Bedhead said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your Gram. You will all be in my thoughts.

moosh in indy. said...

I pray your Grams and you and your family are all doing okay. What a sucktastic ending to a perfect weekend.
I have photobooth madness to maybe distract you momentarily.
Loves and sloppy kisses.

Smiling Mom said...

I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine. I wish I could do something for you like cook you a meal...

SUEB0B said...

Oh, I am sorry.

I am also sorry I didn't get to hang out with you more.

margalit said...

I'm so sorry, Chicky. If you need ANYTHING while you're in the city, ask. You know how to find me. And I'll be at B&W tomorrow if you need a hug or anything. Just call.

andi said...

I'm so, so sorry. Take care of yourself.

Lotta said...

So sorry, my thoughts are with you and it was great to meet you at BlogHer.

Denice said...

So very sorry. It's never easy to lose someone who is precious to you. Maybe she will pull through…

BOSSY said...

So so sorry, Chicky. And - fer christ sake - Bossy misses you already.

motherbumper said...

I am so sorry Mrs. C, I am so sorry. I wish I could just come and hug you like I could just hours ago. I'm thinking of you and your family and I'm here to support you in any way possible.

something blue said...

I can't imagine your day. Huge hugs. I'm thinking of you and your Gram.

Jennifer aka Binky Bitch said...

I'm so sorry. Sending prayers and hugs your way.

~JJ! said...

I'm so sorry about Gram.

I send you my hugs and love.

kgirl said...

Oh no. I'll be thinking about you today, and sending hugs.

Sandra said...

Aching for you my dear friend. I am so sorry about your gram. You are in my thoughts and I am sending big big hugs to you. Missing you already and wishing I was just outside your door to be there to help. Much love.

Whirlwind said...

I am so sorry to hear this. We lost Husband's Meme two years ago and even though it was expected and long overdue, it was still very, very hard. I'll be thinking of you.

Izzy said...

Dude, I'm very sorry about your Gram. I'm wishing for a miracle.

We can talk about BlogHer later. The stories will keep. Missing you.

Avalon said...

Oh Mrs. C~~ My wishes to you and your Gram. Her for s peaceful passing, if that is what's meant to be.....and you for some healing and peace.

Christina said...

BlogHer stories can wait...it'll keep people in suspense, right?

I'm so sorry your grandmother's health took a turn for the worse so quickly. My thoughts are with you and your family.

kittenpie said...

Oh, honey. I am sorry you had such an abrupt and unhappy end to your fab weekend. (That much the worse for how I heard you were feeling...)

I looooved meeting you, and would be all giddy to rehash when you feel up to it, but totally understand that now is not the time. Instead, I send you hugs and my shoulder, okay? Take care.

(And you MUST come visit us all some time. We adore you.)

bitemycookie said...

heartbreak. my gram is my best friend on this whole planet, which is my odd way of saying that your sadness is felt all the way over here. air kisses. amazing gramses leave gaping holes behind when leave us. fill it with good memories. all the warmest thoughts to you and your family.

it was nice to meet you and your boobies. i desperately hope to see you all again one day.

in the meantime, hugs.
xobmc

aimee / greeblemonkey said...

Sorry I am late on this, and I am very sorry about your Grandmother. My Oma was so special to me, I miss her every day.