Thursday, August 19, 2010

My heart




Children have no idea of the power they hold over their parents.

It’s just as well. If they did, imagine the possibilities.

It would all be puppies and ponies and chocolate for dinner.

But procuring small, fuzzy animals aside, children, from day one, hold us in the palm of their hands never realizing at any moment they can, and do, crush us. Oftentimes several times a day.

A fever will have us up all night with worry. A tantrum can send us into a fit of our own. A hug and a kiss melts our heart. The very heart they hold in their tiny fists.

It takes a hard heart to not be melted by a child’s hands, a child’s tears, a skinned knee, a hopeful look. We write about it, in baby books, in blogs. We tell our friends and our family anecdotes. Share life’s small moments. Show them the latest pictures whether they want to see them or not. We have to.

And as they grow older their power changes. They become manipulative but they’re still our babies. Still unable to comprehend what they can do to us. They have the power to wound us. Cut us to the core. Demolish us with a word. Make us bleed with an action. We grapple with our feelings for them. Love, hate, resentment, need. How crazy that all those emotions and more can be evoked all at once and by one small person. How insane we can feel this way because of...

Love.

Love at its purest as well at its most complicated.

We created them. They can end us. Give, take. Push, pull.

Power without supremacy. Surrender without frailty. Nurturing. Giving. Love.

My heart is their heart. They can do with it what they will.

16 comments:

Making It Work Mom said...

Oh God it is so true huh! My little one is still at the stage where she is just full of goodnes while my oldest is at the age where she is spitting venom 24/7. Both of them can break my heart in a second.

Lara said...

When you've done your job well, though - as my mom did with me - someday they figure it out, and they're gentle with your heart, because they love you so very much. I bet your girls will get there sooner than you think.

Pgoodness said...

This post is perfection. :)

melissa said...

oh, so beautiful!
pgoodness tweeted this and i'm so glad she did!

Mommy Darnell said...

so very very true.

Cara said...

Wow. This is so right on and so very eloquent.

mommabird2345 said...

so true. you've made me cry.

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Cheryl Lage said...

So very lovely, and so very true. My He-Twin brought me shells this week and how the image touched me before I even read your words.

Rock on, Chicky.

One Sided Momma said...

love this post. we brought them in, they can take us out.

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SciFi Dad said...

You eat ponies and puppies for dinner?!? What is wrong with you?

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Issas Crazy World said...

Crying. Love this. Truly love it.

I read something once (possible by Hallmark. Don't judge.) about having children is letting your heart out of your body and watching it walk around.